big update! it’s been a while

Soooo… guess who graduated highschool?

I totally expected to be held back this year. When our principal gave a little speech before we all got our results I was so nervous.

He started with “Good evening everyone!” I answered with a high pitched drawn out “hiiiiiiiiii!” which made my classmate and hopefully friend next to be start laughing (she always laughs at things I say) which made me start laughing, which led to me spending the first minute of listening to that speech with my hand in front of my mouth.

Then we had to go do administration with our classes, turn in our laptops etc.

Then we all got our report cards and we counted to three.

I heard my friend shouting in glee before I even saw my result.

I was so happy for her I immediately started celebrating with her and forgot about my report card for just a second.

En then at the bottom of the first page I saw it:

“Decision: passed”!

Best day of my freaking life.

Graduation was fun too. I read a short text in the church beforehand and then at the graduation we listened to some music and speeches which was nice.

There was a drone flying above us which scared the shit out of tons of people.

I shook my homeroom teachers’ hands, got my diploma, and got the hell out of there after congratulating a few friends.

I of course would have stayed to get shit faced drunk but I was with my mom and sister.

I am sad I’ll lose some friends. I most likely won’t see 80% of them ever again.

Last year was a goddamn fiasco mentally and socially and I honestly don’t want to type that out.

But the thing is. This year I made so many friends that I didn’t have the entirety of last school year.

I regret losing them.

Between the day where we got our results and graduation our class had a barbecue with two of our favorite teachers who are also married.

I had a few drinks, made some dead dad jokes.

The usual when I’m out with my class.

They all see me as an alcoholic because I drink more when I’m with them. It’s because I think they like me more when I’m drunk. I like myself more when I’m drunk too.

I don’t drink that often though. Luckily, I have just enough self preservation to not become an alcoholic.

Next week I’m going to a kind of gay bar with my best friend.

I saw it when I passed by on the train while going to visit my aunt and uncle who just came back from a 6 months long Asia trip. It stood out to me.

Then later my aunt mentioned to me how I should go sometime and how lgbt friendly the place is (my dad’s side of the family is totally on to me)

So I’m taking my friend there.

I ordered some clothes from vinted to wear to it because I don’t have enough summery and going out clothes + I’m kind of having an emotional phase.

Kickstarted by 18 by Anarbor.

I’ll tell you guys how it goes and I’ll post pics of the outfit if it arrives on time!